A letter to my dad

 I wish I could say that I was able to enter 2021 in good spirits, but unfortunately my family has taken blow after blow with the closing of 2020, due to the deaths of both my grandmother and my father who left us merely 2 days after Christmas. To be truly honest these last few months, I have been struggling with a lot of  depression and grief. There is so much I wish I could have said to my father while he was sill with me, but I never got the chance, so I decided to write a letter to him here as a form of release and a final farewell.

Dear Daddy,

I never thought you would be gone so soon. I really thought you would leave the hospital and we would be joking about how much you hated the hospital food and how you bossed those poor nurses around.

You were always the life of the party and it hurt so much to know you were so ill and could barely do any of the things you liked. It was hard knowing that my strong dad who could walk miles everyday and leap for baskets at night couldn't move. I know it hurt you so much to have to depend on everyone else. 

My brothers and I recently found out how amazing you were. How you did so much but never said a word to anyone. You really deserved so much more than you recieved. 
You gave us all so much love and faith, even when you were struggling and I hope you know that we really did appreciate it. I never would have been brave enough to do half the things I have managed without your love and encouragement. You gave me advice even when I didn't want to listen.
Daddy I want you to know that I love you and will always love you. My precious dad, I will always remember the good times and your memory will live on with my future children. 

Love you always,
Your eldest daughter. 

No comments